Sunday, May 24, 2009

The Reason...

Scott died of diabetic shock. The lesson is simple. If you're a diabetic take care of yourself because no one else can. And if you don't, the pain you leave behind in mind numbing.


Gig said...

Suze...I do feel your pain. I lost my best friend from school 9 years ago. I still feel the loss, we were supposed to grow old together...but a car accident changed that. The pain is less, but the many, many memories will never go away.

Thanks for sharing with us your grief, that is why we are here.

Ed is diabetic, so I am always watching, as is he.

Much love my dear friend,
Giggie, xoxo

Suzanne said...

Oh Giggie. I skipped over it because it was too painful to look at. Where do you put all of that baby? This has nearly broken my heart. I loved that man you know. I think I'm okay, but then hot water just rolls down my face and I realize I'm not okay at all. I don't know how to adjust.

However, one thing I realize is the face of diabetes. This didn't have to happen. And worse than worse, is his mom's a nurse. You know she's in agony. My Gram was a nurse in the same hospital and they knew one another. Decades apart, but so respectful of one another. You can't be a nurse and not know what to do and yet feel completely helpless. I have to call her, you know and I don't know how. I don't know what to say.

I love you so darling. Loss is forever loss. I don't think it's supposed to get easy. It's supposed to hurt so you remember. I love you and Ed. This is a cautionary tale.

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