Friday, February 15, 2008


We can only be said to be alive those moments when
our heart's are conscious of our treasures.
~Thornton Wilder

Happy Belated Valentine's Day. I was so sick I didn't realize it was Valentine's Day yesterday. Frankly, I'm still dealing with the fact I've missed most of February. In addition to everything else, my sore throat moved to my lungs (oh joy). I've coughed so hard the past few days I woke with laryngitis on Valentine's Day and it's only gotten worse. I can barely talk. Now, some friends and family will be down on their knees, hands raised to the heavens saying "Thank God something finally shut her up!" but frankly, I don't find that very amusing because I'm in pain. In fact, I can't even believe I'm writing this. I haven't been on the computer in days, but when I took a peek this afternoon was so moved by all the kind words, I thought I should try to say hello and let you know I'm closer to the grave than I'd originally thought. Bindi and Cielo, will you please come out here and take care of me, and on the way would you be kind enough to pick up the rest of the crew because I'd like everyone to be here to attend the Memorial in the event I croak!

YES. I'm going to the doctor. I put it off this week because I was too sick to sit in the waiting room. YES. I will be there bright and early Monday or Tuesday...Wednesday at the latest. Am I in deep doo-doo? Yup. I am. Anitibiotics? Yup. The usual protocol. I don't do well with anitibiotics so avoid them at all costs. They make me sick, so I'm sick on top of sick. Ya know what I mean? Not fun. But, this is serious and I've let it go way beyond acceptable. Please don't scold me...I've suffered enough.

Valentine's day was the three week anniversary of Ireland's escape from the carrier. Despite how ill I've been I haven't missed a day feeding the ferals or a day searching for Ireland. Is it hard? You bet, but I met a homeless guy and his dog the other day at the park as I was leaving. I bought a bike pump for another homeless guy I met months ago, but haven't seen since. So when I saw this guy on his bike with his cart and dog, I stopped him and asked him if he'd like the brand new bike pump!? Happily, he said yes. And as sick as I was, sat down to chat with them. I left with so much more than I'd given. I felt so honored to meet them. I spoke with them again yesterday, gave the dog a blanket and some kitty food(!) and had such a wonderful time although I could barely speak. They weren't there this morning and I missed them.

I have so many treasures. I am always alive because I'm aware of my treasures. Always.

I love all of you so much. Thank you for being part of my life. You matter so very, very much.



kylie said...

I have to go cook dinner but i'll be wrote me such a long comment and i cant help but answer

Suzanne said...

Well hurry because it's after 11 pm here and I'm dyin' sista.

kylie said...

you still there?

Suzanne said...

Well of course I'm still here. What do you expect. I'm sick and stupid. So I'll wait.

XO Suze

kylie said...

well, did i offend you about blogging about kids? you are to be commended for not taking the easy way out, kids are such a great fall back. i know well about dogs, one day i'll tell ya some stories.
how do i edit? it's easy, i'm usually rushing. also, i tend to think "no, thats garbage, they don't want to hear that" i take the same approach with clothes...if you're not sure, take it off. something to cover top and bottom is mandatory but after that, well.....
you know how people wear a buttoned shirt over a Tee or camisole? i just can't do it. Why not just wear the shirt.
i'll have to go back to my place to see what else i wanna say but am pposting this, just in case you dont make it :)

kylie said...

oh yeah, i'm much more wordy in real life, get me chatting and i'll go on and on about anything and nothing. my bloke thinks i'm mad but he doesn't use half of his daily word quota so i may as well take it. i have a mate whose bloke is equally quiet and we often ask if they think they have to pay a fee for each word they say. see, i can do it online after all blah, blah, blah
i dont think it was me who said that about mark, could be wrong tho
i've missed ya
talk soon

kylie said...

ok, i have to go finish dinner so i'm saying goodnight 'cos you're goin to bed

bindhiya said...

Dear Suzanne,
Nice to see you back! but please take good care of you first!
I will be so honored to be there to take care of you..

But please don't wait until Monday go to the doctor today itself..
everything else can wait. please go see a doctor..

Take care.
love and hugs

'54Bomber said...

G'day Suze,
Welcome back to the land of the living. We've all missed you. :)

Love to you an dyoour family,
Mark XOX (( ))

Anonymous said...

Suzanne, YOU are the true treasure in this life. Sick as a parrot and you still think of helping other people - you are just amazing, an inspiration.
Please, please, please take extra special care of that someone who you don't think enough of - and that person is you. What would happen to the people and animals that you help and look after if you croak? Seriously though, take care my dear.
Lots of love and hugs from Moscow.
PJ xxx

Gig said...

Have missed you. I agree with Bindi and Peter, don't delay going to the Dr. We all love and care about you.


floots said...

hope you're feeling better
i've been zombified by the fire all day (migraine) so i really can sympathise :(

Suzanne said...


Hello my dear. I'm at the computer because it was the only way to get Mickey to come in the office, lay down on something soft and go to sleep. He's been sick all day. I on the other hand don't belong here. I'm sicker today than I have been all week. I konked out right after my last comment to you and when I woke up I thought I was dying with the worst migraine, the worst sick stomach, the worst lung pain, etc. I couldn't feed the animals or do any of my morning "stuff." I was sent back to bed to suffer. I fell asleep for about 5 minutes only to wake up and realized I was still in the same nightmare. It's now 2:30 pm and nothing has really changed. I'm trying to drink weak tea, we'll see if that stays down.

Unbelievably, I went to the park. I don't remember how I got there, being there, or how I got home. I just know my crew was happy to see me and that made me happy. I arrived home and went directly back to bed. I fell asleep for awhile, woke up and felt exactly the same. Go figure.

Now to address some of your comments. First, I LOVE KIDS!!! Are you kidding!??? You would NEVER offend me talking about them. NEVER! I was just kidding around with you. I'm from a big family and I have lots of nieces and nephews I adore and wish were my kids. I love hearing about being a mom and all the silly (and not so silly) things you do, as well as all the silly (and not so silly) things kids do. I'm all ears, so don't ever worry about offending me in that regard.

Editing is good. I'm better at editing when I dress than when I write. Obviously! You seem to have both under control. Good for you. :)

The comment about your husband and your friends husband made me laugh. I needed that.

I'm going to go for now because I feel just awful, but wanted to say hello and apologize for not getting back to you last night. Thanks for writing and for thinking about me. Miss you.

p.s. You're right, you aren't the one who made that remark to Mark. It was Cinnamon. Remember her?

Suzanne said...


Hi sweetie. I know you'd be here in an instant. Thank you. I promise to take care of myself. I have really good doctors so will see them next week. If I want to see a doctor over the weekend I'd have to visit the emergency room and that isn't even an option because I'd be in the waiting room forever. Yuck.

Thanks for your email. I loved it. Will respond when I'm feeling a bit better. I'm steaming with Vics AND Tiger Balm~ great advice.

I miss you too, Take good care of yourself and Serene. Big hug and kiss.

Love you,

Suzanne said...


I always love to hear from you. I've missed you. Unfortunately, if you read my response to Kylie you'll see I'm barely back to the land of the living. I'm disappointed, but confident this will be over soon. Cross your fingers.

Please give my love to Jo and Helen and let Helen know I'll write on her blog when I'm feeling better.
Until then, love and hugs,

Suzanne said...


Thank you sweetie. I've realized I do have to take better care of myself. I'm going to try very hard to do just that when I get through this misery. I'm going to start walking again, get my allergies under control (I haven't been doing what the doctors recommend)and try desperately to stop burning my candle at both ends. I'm also going to try to do the most important thing in the world, and that is reduce stress.

Thank you for your kind words, concern and love. I just adore you - you know that. Stay warm and cosy (I love the way you spell that!) and know that I'm thinking about you.

Much love,
Suzanne XO

Suzanne said...


Hi honey. Thank you. I agree with all of you! I was just hoping I'd feel better by this weekend, so I delayed. I learned a valuable lesson, as usual. Thanks for your love and concern ~ it's wonderful having you around. Hope all is well on your end. I haven't been able to check out all my favorite blogs, but hope to soon.

Lots of love,
Suzanne XO

Suzanne said...


Thanks for writing and for your encouragement. I'm sorry to hear you feel horrible as well. Why do create people suffer so with migraines? I've dealt with chronic migraines for 3 decades and I'm no closer to understanding why. The one I have today is insane, but I say that about all of them.

Thanks for always checking in and for caring. I'm confident I'll feel better soon and hope you do too.

Much love,

kylie said...

take care, babe and we'll talk when you're well.
i never actually "met" cinnamon, she disappeared just as i started to get to know all you guys
i'm editing here, cos i reckon you dont need to be sitting up reading my ramblings :)

Suzanne said...


Hey sweetie. Well here are my options because the pain isn't going away. Lay in bed and suffer. Lay on the sofa and suffer. Watch TV and suffer. Or sit here reading and writing and suffer. I don't know which hurts less at this point, so I've been reading and writing. I can't say I feel any better for having done so, but I've had some good laughs and a few tears. It's been wonderful despite the pain. I can honestly say I can hardly wait to see the doctor and figure out what's wrong because I can't go on like this. It's absolutely horrible. Keep in touch. Even if I don't feel well enough to respond, at least reading everyone's kind words helps.

Love you,

Robyn said...

Well isn't this a welcome sight! As brief as it is...I have missed you somethng friece! these are strict orders. FLUID! REST! MORE REST! MEDS! MORE FLUID! THEN BACK FOR MORE REST!

GET TO THE DAMN DOCTOR Suzanne...I am serious about that. I don't want to hear how this turned into pneumonia or something close to that! Take care sweety! You are never too far from my thoughts!

Miss ya & love ya!

P.S. now what is all this about picking on Bri while I'm not around...*evil grin*

bindhiya said...

Dear Suzanne,
Hope and pray you are having a good day!
am in a hurry just stopping to see how you doing..
I know emergency can be long waiting...since i was there with my baby 6, 7 times..every time she get sick i will run to the clinic or er...i can't wait one more minute...maybe because i have a lonely friends or family around...
those steam and medicinal tea is our primary medicine back in grandma's medicines...she know a lot of herbal remedies..
I wish am there with you....
I ♥ you ((hugs))
take care

The Queen said...

Dear Suzanne,
There will be no missed opportunities for you when you life ends. I love your open giving heart and the steel in your spine to be who you are in the face of others with less soul. You give us all courage to be better than be dare to.
Get to the Dr. Missy,
Love, THE Queen

krystyna said...

Hi Suzanne!
I can say - amen! - to all your sweet, lovely comments you have here.

You remind me my childchood time, when I was very sensitive to all birds, animals (even fly), as you are. I still love animals but thanks for givind me an impulse.

You are wonderful soul, Suzanne!

Anonymous said...