Sunday, October 4, 2009

Ohno...

Remember when I found Ohno as a baby? Shivering and the last one waiting to be adopted? I didn't walk, I ran with him. He was trouble from the beginning. Just pure trouble. Remember when he fell into the fish tank!!! Oh my God that was just awful, but in a really funny awful way!!! It wasn't as if we didn't have enough cats. We did, but Ohno needed us. And we needed him.
As you all know he's named Ohno because every time he'd walk into a room you'd hear "OH NO!!!" Yes, he was that much trouble. He loved his Dad's office. Spent hours there on the desk next to Rob memorizing cases and helping strategize. Then the wee divorce and Ohno went into a funk he's never returned from. He was the funniest, friendliest, most amazing, well adjusted kitty in the whole world, but the divorce killed his spirit. He became petty and mean and has remained so. He needs to be in a house where he's an only kitty, but I can't let him go because I love him so and I keep thinking everything's going to be okay.
He grew up to be such a beautiful boy. Remember how tiny he was? He's big and solid now. He looks light because he's all silky, but must weight 17-18 lbs. He's just all muscle. I pick up Mickey and he's a Maine Coon, so he's big. He's over 20 lbs, but feels light and delicate. Ohno feels like a damn tank. I don't really know how to explain it. You have to feel it. The boy is dense, but not in a dumb way!
Newman's been gone 9 months, almost to the day. He died on a full moon, so every full moon matters. I've waiting to see who would become the alpha male. It's taken a long time as most of you know. I realized tonight, it's Ohno. Without a doubt.

I looked at him tonight and know I will never give him to someone else. You all know me. That isn't in my heart. Somehow we will all navigate this new life. Without Newman. Without Rob.
XO

15 comments:

kylie said...

welcome to alpha cat

you'll be right, suze. we always are. just breathe in, breathe out. repeat

Leah said...

I am so glad you're keeping Ohno. I would do the same thing.

I like Kylie's comforting comment, and I second it.

xo

the walking man said...

I think I saw your cat run across my path last night. tell OhNo I am not of the mind to let his spook matter...much. ha ha ha ha

Karen ^..^ said...

Black cats are so sensitive. Kathryn has two black cats named Boo and Iris.

Boo (AKA Boo Bear) is extremely sensitive. He's such a darling boy, is so kind to his fellow animals, all animals, but when something upsets him, he loses his long beautiful fur, and starts peeing everywhere. Like you, we cannot bear to part with him. He's got the most amazing, deep rumbling purr you can imagine.

Iris is just high strung. But the most darling cat ever.

She went through a horrible adjustment period when I left the house. She got very attached to me, and now just wanders around meowing. Kathryn wants to trade one of my cats for Iris, but who to give away? I'd rather lose an arm.

Just give OhNo lots of special individual attention. Lots of pettings and love. He'll come around.

Iris has, and so has Boo Bear.

Every time I go to thier house, Iris comes bounding up and does the "Ballerina hop" when I put my hand out to her. She jumps, purring, into my hand for a nice pet. I love that cat. If I didn't worry so much about getting kicked out of here, I'd take her in a heartbeat. I really miss Boo Bear, too. I'm only allowed two cats. I have five. So far, no one's seemed to notice.

Kandi said...

Awww! what a cute kitty!

e said...

Hi Suzanne,

I would keep Ohno too. Have you ever read the book, Animals make us human?

It is worth checking out. I'm glad you made it through the close call on the freeway and there will always be some unenlightened person to contend with...just keep your wits and sense of humour and do as Kylie suggests.

If you know how to rid a room of the odor left behind by kitty accidents, please let me know. One of mine is having a problem...

I wish you a good week!

Megan said...

Hang in there, darlin. When the roller-coaster stops, you'll be able to get off and walk around a while.

And then, knowing you, you'll get right back in line for the roller-coaster! :) :)

Hugs to you and Ohno. Does he accept hugs, now that he is Top Cat?

Anonymous said...

That last picture of him is so cool, all grown up with his mane- yup looks like a mane! No wonder you're under his spell!

Suzanne said...

Thanks Kylie. Not just for this, or everything. You've seen me through so many "moments." I love you dearly. XO

Suzanne said...

Leah,
Thanks darling. I would never give up a kitty. An animal. Never. There are challenges in life and this is just one. I'll figure it out. I love him so much, you know? There's an answer.

I love you darling. XO

Suzanne said...

TWM,

Ha! He wasn't there because he was here. Knock it off!
XO

Suzanne said...

Karen,

Your advice is amazing. Thank you. You know it's interesting about black cats. Newman died soon after Rob left. I know he never recovered from the loss. I watched as he deteriorated. There was nothing wrong with him but a broken heart. People who love animals know and understand. I don't think animals are any different than people. Stuff hurts. T-Bone has been depressed since his dad left. I don't know how to bring him out. When Alan was here he changed. He was happy, since Alan left he's been sad. I don't know how to fix him. I feel so guilty. What am I doing wrong?

I'm crying. I'll be back when I'm not. I love you so much. Thank you with all my heart.

XO

Suzanne said...

Otin...it sure is!

kylie said...

get over to my place!
i dont know how many posts you have missed............

Suzanne said...

Kylie...that's funny. Will you read this? I hope so. I'm movin' around like a snail lately.